My cat, Sam, passed away a couple of weeks ago. He was ever so much a part of my life and I spent several days sobbing. I think this was an opportunity for me to purge the losses in my life. Sam was a special cat; not extremely loveable and not a lap cat, but so very smart and so very much a part of our family. We all engaged him in conversation each day and, of course, he responded. We rescued Sam in 2008 and I think his life prior to our household had been very scary. So, he chose to enjoy the household, but would not allow himself to be cuddled as we might put him in a cage like he was at the shelter. He also had absolutely no interest in leaving the house or going outside. I would not have allowed that, but it made it easier not to worry about a dash for the door when it was open.
I questioned why I sobbed so vehemently and realized he was part of every moment of the day from the time I arose until bedtime. Yes, he also slept in our bed when the weather was cold. He ran the house and he paid special attention to the handicapped in our home. He was careful not to get in the way of the walker or caned individual. He did not like to be picked up. But, in his last few weeks, he allowed us to hold him and love him for a little while at a time.
A few days before he transitioned, he climbed up on my lap and stayed for over an hour. The next night he did the same with my husband. It caught us off guard and we loved every minute. I will never believe animals do not know what is happening. They are very intuitive and very loving in their own ways. He would come to me for Reiki when he didn’t feel well. I know toward the end he wondered why the reiki no longer healed him. He stared at me so intently I felt the question. Do your thing and help me feel better. Then he would look at me and I am sure wondered why this time it just wasn’t working for him.
I think because of this loss I find myself feeling sad and this leads to feeling sorry for myself. Oh, woe is me. I have to constantly remind myself how blessed I am and how difficult my life could be if I experienced some of the traumas I see. This morning I drew a card from the oracle deck I keep in the bathroom. The Deck is Miracles Now. The card is Happiness is a Choice I Make.
Oracle cards are amazing. They bring the message home and 99% of the time are extremely accurate. I study the card and realize Happiness is really an inside job. How many times have I heard this. I can choose to be happy because I am blessed. Or, I can choose to be miserable because I don’t have what I think I need.
The reality is I have all I need and many of my wants. I am probably very wealthy in another life. I am also very young in another life. I am very strong, I am very free, I am very powerful, I am everything. Right now, in this life I am me and where I am, what I have is enough and it is perfectly what I need. It is a blessed life. I have a beautiful home, a car for transportation, a family I love that loves me, etc.etc.etc.
I am charging the angels with the job of continuing to remind me of this every day. I chose this life to experience it exactly as it is. I am grateful to know this.I hope you are all grateful for the life you have chosen too.
It has been a long dry spell for me regarding listening to or reading the works of spiritual leaders. I just could not seem to get interested, sit still, understand. I used to do this constantly reading one or two books at a time, constantly listening to healers and metaphysical leaders. Then for some reason over the last year, I could not do any of this. Oh, I tried, but to no avail.
All of a sudden, I am drawn once again to listening and tuning In and reading the books I most love. I needed to allow myself to be. That amazing word BE. Just BE who I am in each moment and allow the Universe to move me when it is the perfect time.
Apparently, it is the perfect time. I have tuned back into Hay House and some of the programs offered. Not the same that interested me before, but now new and different programs. I signed up for several seminars presented by Matt Kahn, a wonderful Spiritualist who shares messages for Lightworkers. Teaching of loving self and others in today’s very different world.
I was even re-introduced to Conversations with God, now on audio, receiving the information in a very different way. I am grateful. I am happy to once again feel the draw to connect in these ways. There has been a shift in my universe and this is the way it is expressing in my life. I can wonder what changed as outwardly it does not seem apparent, but to just enjoy and move forward with the change is probably the best way to experience whatever comes into my life now.
I am also being drawn to post more messages on Facebook so may surprise myself by doing so more often.
Have things changed in your life in some unique way? Did you notice? It is a blessing.
Namaste’ Dear Friends and Angel Blessings
As much as I invite change in my actions, I do find it difficult to “Let Go” of some things, some situations. I remember it took years of trauma before I recognized I needed to leave my first marriage. It no longer served either of us. Spirit made ME make the move. It was so hard to do, but it made me a stronger person, strong enough to handle other situations that would come my way.
Years later when I was working in a career I loved with people I loved, I was offered a dream position in a different State with new to me people and a new home. This was an exciting offer and I was highly influenced by the compensation package. I felt I just could not say no. But, I was leaving friends and family behind. It was a difficult transition and maybe one I did not take enough time to grieve. Over the years, I did move through it and became stronger.
When the dream job went very sour 10 years later, I was terrified to let go- The Money !. But the energy I found myself in was so toxic I felt ill going to work. The energy had shifted and it was a nightmare. Because I held so tight and would not let go, the Angels had to help and got me fired so I would move on. They did create for me a very soft landing which made the next transition much easier.
We moved on to yet a different state and new home. Here I was challenged to create a new life with different expectations. I was strong enough to understand the processes and moved without fear. I thanked the Universe for providing the exercises in my life to build these muscles.
But now, once again after many years, I am called to Let Go of a few situations I created and enjoyed for my life. The people have been dear to me and helped me to evolve. I am a bit fearful of letting go and worry I will be lost and won’t be able to create again. Ego always does this to our humanness. My higher self knows Spirit will guide me. We must always make room for newness and change in our lives.
It is time for these changes and time for me to create anew that which can only be done when I make room for the newness in my life. The sadness will dissipate in time and I will find a path I love as much as the paths I release.
What needs to change in your life? You can let go! Take the step and watch the angels help you find a soft landing.